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Sunday, June 20, 2010


Two weeks ago, I had to undergo a major surgery. I wouldn't bore you with the details, but tell you that after two weeks I have been able to sit (barely) before the PC and type this out.

Pain. In and out through the windows of sedation, I experience this excruciating physical pain. In the sedated slumber I travel through unseen lands. Most of the time I doze or blankly watch movies in the TV. Tried reading, but failed.

Exhaustion. Tapping out a few steps exhausts me. I am aware of each little movement, attentive to that shooting pain that makes me shiver. I have never been so fully conscious of my body.

Gradually, I am limping back to normalcy. I can feel my body hard at work, repairing, closing up all those wounds. I wait.

10 years ago to this date, I was walking up the Himalayas to Kailas and Mansarovar. Three years ago to this date, I was riding my bike up the high mountain passes in Himalayas. I dream, I hope that soon I will go there again. Till then...


  1. Dey Its not "Paradise Lost".
    So move on.................

  2. Oh My God , what happened ?

    I hope you're fine now. Get well soon.

  3. Hey Balanji.. get well soon.. and i am sure you will visit all the places again.

  4. @Rini, Kalpana: Thanks, guys! I am getting better. Hope to be able to move around in another week...

  5. Balan sir what happened? hope everything is OK. Take care!!

  6. Arun, Subu: Thanks! I am fine now, though normalcy would be another month away!


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